My name is Karl and I am 34 years old. I have been in active addiction for more than 20 years. I have seen many friends come and go in this terrible epidemic. I never thought that the disease of addiction would take me down such a rocky road.
I've had my fair share of run ins with the law, I have done things I’m not proud of and I have put my family through hell. I've put my 2 children in harm’s way more times than I'd like to admit. I lost great relationships and hurt so many in the process, even robbing and stealing from my closest loved one’s.
I spent time in jail over and over and rehabs even more. I tried maintenance programs like methadone and suboxone, which turned out to be just a legal way for me to get high. Then I found myself abusing the medication or selling it to get more drugs. I put my parents through hell and helped to put them into bankruptcy. I missed many years of my children’s lives. Even when I was there for them, I wasn’t all there emotionally and mentally. I’ve wrecked many vehicles and got multiple D.U. I’s.
I’ve been a Christian all my life but have walked away form God many times in my life. I was always trying to blame my problems on other people, like if it wasn’t for this or that I wouldn’t have gotten high or drunk. I would always justify my using because of significant events of trauma or pain, but now that I’m coming to accept the things I can’t change, I’m starting to see life in a new light.
I’ve been doing whatever it takes. I work a real recovery program. When I say that, I’m referring to what I do to stay sober. I go to 12-step meetings anywhere from 3 to 5 times a week, I go to church regularly. I have a God of my understanding that I get up and pray to everyday. I have a sponsor that I not only call but I work the steps with. I meet weekly with my pastor, and I have a great support network of sober people who actually care about my well being at Noah's House. I am always trying to do more service work and pass the message of hope to the next man who is struggling. Taking time out of my day to share where I’ve been and show them there is a better way.
Right now, I have so much gratitude for the cops who arrested me, my probation officer, Franklin County Drug & Alcohol, Gaudenzia Concept 90, and all the people who never gave up on me. I am especially so thankful to be at Noah’s House. It’s a recovery home that gives people like me another chance. I’ve been so fortunate to be able to have this time to work on myself and build a strong foundation so that when I leave I can continue to grow in my recovery and build the life I’ve always dreamed of.
Its never to late to change and I’m living proof of that. So, for anyone that has been affected by the disease of drugs and alcohol, one way or another remember- don’t ever give up, when you make a mistake you get back up and try again... cause we are all worth it.